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The Art of Mindful Sitting
Segregation, isolation, loneliness and depth
We do it – if you can imagine – most of us kind of don’t know why we do it – but the reason is because we love it.
We don’t love it – we love it. We don’t love it – we love it. Crying babies and yet again – very strong adults if we do it all the time.
Start now – make space for your heart and for your body to just drop…dead. Yes – it’s not dark. We’re in Pisces now – death and the idea of short lived perhaps humble silence is where we are going to get the most.
Why we need sleep, why we need rest or why we need closure and just absolute silence sometimes is this –
We don’t operate in chaos.
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Survival vs thriving
That is not something we are taught or given advice on just because well, we always thought that it was natural and nurturing for us to “belong” with one another, to walk around, run around, jump around and parade around like the rest with the best – bla bla we are but a herd of sheep…but did you hear? I wasn’t sure that was true when I wrote it.
Yes we are not meant to do this at all – what we are doing – there was not ever perhaps a war on earth without need. Perhaps because we don’t know where else to grow. Create nothing for a while – smell the air woah…what’s that?
Hmmm – decay – maybe most of the time you know this – we structure buildings that don’t match the integrity of the environment, we home with people we don’t love or do things we don’t need and yes in a way it’s just an obsessive compulsive cycle of…lies.
But the bad thing can get very GOOD – very good – if you and I just learn to be free.
So for whatever reason we fear that state is probably not great to discuss right now – but in silence and sentience is greater and greater rhythms and inevitably MASTERY – super hard core depth and mastery of the big kind – yeah boi – just have to really mystify nothing here and just let it be.
Are we though seen, are we though wanted, loved or trusted?
We are – and it’s not about who sees you or not – that’s beyond the point. We don’t need an affirmation of love or trust…we just think we are unable to function without it sometimes. Ha – funny.
We think that in our greatest state of freedom we need something or someone telling us how they feel about us and sometimes yes we can’t do without that little nudge when we come too close to – ourselves and inevitably God indeed – we scare ourselves off into a neat little compartment with something or someone else and sometimes yes – we do not want to come out.
But BAH – you can’t leave. You cannot leave yourself – and that is what makes us anxious as fluff, because simply – situations with other people don’t seem to resonate either but the hunger persists and that is for
Self hunger…we hunger to remember how to hunger for ourselves but when we are together withourselves we feel…icky
That’s the thing – loneliness, solitude is a luxury
How about that – I mean – truly how much of the time did humanity spend doing doing doing – and here you have it – the luxury of the open arms of god and the moment in time that could be for ever yours for eternity
But why can’t we spend it alone in grace?
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Tossing turning and regretting
That’s why
You just don’t have to fix you don’t have to work it all out – and yes you are inevitably enough – more then that – you are more then you – in that moment of no longer being seen observed or witnessed you hold you and are you ready – God – you hold God and God holds you – but the depth is strong and neither one or the other state is real truly unless you just are- being is that which you need – but how about you try – how it hurts sometimes actually to be you. How it fully does.
Some of us have to just do that for a while and get used to our own being our own smell our own thoughts or just the own….feeling…of just – this.
That – is what we run from.
What is “this” – because you start to question everything and most people just question themselves – but how about this – world.
If you can’t see it you might be blind truly – but how karmically charged everything is around and what for we create it – over and over again – because….we can’t be unconditional – so where is that unconditional core
Inside us. When we sleep – when we wake – or when we dream. In it – within it – inside it. If you can’t be one inside you – on any level are you even here.
Are you even yours. Do you ever have a heart.
Do you exist. Are you home.
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